Lucy’s Neighborhood

7:32 pm

I gave Ryan his medicine tonight. 

8:00 pm

I gave Ryan his bath tonight and then gave him a massage with lotion.  Massages always relax my son. 

8:30 pm

He said he was hungry so I gave him a peanut butter sandwich.  This is normal, even though we fed him Chicken Nuggets not long ago.  He is use to having this snack before he goes to sleep.

9:00 pm

Ryan kept wanting to get out of bed; however, I was able to convince him to stay in bed.

9:34 pm

Ryan is asleep now.  : )

Sleeping duration 9:34 pm to 1:30 am.  He slept 4 hours.

1:30 am

Ryan woke up.  He went into our bedroom and went to sleep.  He asked for a drink first. 

2:39 am

Ryan woke up.  He went to the restroom. 

7:32 pm

I gave Ryan his medicine tonight. 

8:00 pm

I gave Ryan his bath tonight and then gave him a massage with lotion.  Massages always relax my son. 

8:30 pm

He said he was hungry so I gave him a peanut butter sandwich.  This is normal, even though we fed him Chicken Nuggets not long ago.  He is use to having this snack before he goes to sleep.

9:00 pm

Ryan kept wanting to get out of bed; however, I was able to convince him to stay in bed.

9:34 pm

Ryan is asleep now.  : ) 

Have A Merry Riot

Quite the entertaining piece in this Sunday's Boston Globe, about the early origins of Christmas and its eventual taming over the years. Sounds like it was quite the wild time in the good old days, complete with drunkeness and debauchery:'

http://www.boston.com/bostonglobe/ideas/articles/2009/12/20/christmas_was_a_riot/

With this whole over-the-top craze with "Twilight" and vampire stories in general, I was wondering: what would happen if a vampire bit someone who had aids?

The Summer Queen has been in darkness. The Summer Queen surrenders to this. To him she reveals her wine and secrets. For a time they join. Fire and Frost in marriage.

Through a Midwinter clearing, the forest greets a snowy evening. Year after year the Holly King, passes the torch as it was intended. Through a Midwinter clearing. A final kiss and a new beginning. His Summer Queen wearing his wreath, soon with the sun she will be ascending.

Soon with the sun she will be ascending.

Happy Winter!

December 19, 2009 009

7:42 pm

Ryan gets all his medicine. 

8:19 pm

My son has been put into his bed by me 5 times now.  I am in his bed.  He struggled with me to get out of bed each time and I am just so, exhausted that I cannot chase him anymore.  Well, at least all the doors are locked.  Also, his Dad is still down stairs watching television. 

8:43 pm

I went down to get myself something to drink.  Anyhow my son saw me and said, "time to go to bed, mommy pick me up."  I told my son you are too big now so I cannot carry you up the stairs anymore, but mommy still loves you very much.  He walks up the stairs.  I got in bed and before I could even turn around to grab him he was downstairs again.  I will chase him again tomorrow night.  I seriously am run down.  The sharing of night duty has not went so well.  I need zzzzzzz  zzzzzzzz  zzzzzzzzz's! 

9:09 pm

He came and got in bed again.  Then two minutes later he said he was hungry.  He went down to tell his dad, but instead I believe all he has done is yell that "there is a fire in the house."

9:15 pm

I had enough, so I made him a peanut butter sandwich, we got a drink, and went to his bed.  I gave him a massage on his legs and back. 

9:37 pm

Ryan finally went to sleep.  For some reason it was totally different tonight than the night before..  Tonight he kicked and hit me and really struggled to get out of the bed.  He did not want to go to sleep tonight.     

9:48 pm

Ryan woke up yelling for a fire.  Hist Dad told him that he would make a fire tomorrow.  Ryan wanted it today.  

9:57 pm

Ryan is quiet and sleeping!  Hopefully he stays that was.  During the past seven minutes he has talked and cried in his sleep, but he is quiet now.  : )

10:39 pm

I slept for about 20 minutes and Ryan woke up saying, "Come on let's go mommy.  Their coming."  He then goes out into our hallway upstairs and repeatedly shuts each of the five doors over five times each, over and over.  Now he is crying come on Mommy and went back to slamming the doors.  I am so sleepy and tired.  This is my life over and over and it never ends.  Ok last night he slepts and it will be interesting to see how often he wakes up now that I am dilligently keeping this journal.

This time he woke up he had no violent inclinations.  He talked to me like we were all nuts and it was time to wake up for the day.  But, these nights with no sleep lead to days that are just horrible for him.  He honestly will not be able to control his actions if he does not sleep.  He will not be able to concentrate so his playing and drawing will not be options for him to do.  His time will be occupied with opening every door in the house 5 times and shutting them 5 times,  How do I know what is coming tomorrow, ahhh because I am his mother and this has happend over and over,

11:17 pm

Well, we have shifted locations from his bedroom to the family room so that he can look at the tree.  Sometimes, lately his fascination with the Christmas tree has helped him to lay still enough to cross over into sleepy land.  Did I say I was tired?  This up and downs stuff really messes with my sleeping patterns.   Some days I feel like a zombie along with my son because I am so tired from his ups and downs.  

He is asleep again.  Dear God in heaven, please let my child sleep!

12:00 am

  My son finally went to sleep.  He is on the couch sound asleep.  Sigh, Sleep content sleep!

1:11 am

So, I am really excited that he is asleep.  But, my schedule is so messed up it will take me awhile to get back on track.  It is hard to go back to sleep sometimes even if you are exhausted, especially when you wake up and go to sleep then wake up and go to sleep repetitively.  Well, it is goodnight for me finally. 

My sleeping logs are for the doctors, but I thought it might help others to know that they are not alone.  Plus if anyone has advice, I am more than open. 

Caitlin and Machiavelli

My daughter is nine years old.  I love her so much.  But, it is selfish for me to not send her out to our family to get her out of this house as much as I can when her brother is having trouble.  So, at the moment I am in limbo.  By the way, that is my cat Machiavelli.  He was 12 and died with diabetes two summers ago.  That picture is one of my favorites of Catilin with Machi.  She absolutely loved the cat. 

My son is still crying and screaming!  He tears my heart out with this.  The doctor said, "Let's try this medicine till after Christmas and then see how he is doing."  I have a feeling that we are going for a small hospital stay to figure out his medicine.  One all is good, but then turn around and look back and there is a pattern.  What is the pattern?  That really is the key to my son sometimes.  What are the environmental factors when he does said action?  Who are the people around him and what are they doing and saying. etc..when said action occurrs?             

This last regression really has thrown me for a loop because the only thing I can figure out is that he is good in our quiet moments.